God's Beloved Woman

VI : Mastery of Sexual Energy

Oh my Beloved!

How magnificent Sex is! What a fascinating metaphor You have created in this world of polarities for the reunification of divided feminine and masculine energy. It recalls the myth of Adam and Eve, once created from the same substance, divided into male and female. Exiled to Earth after tasting the fruit from the Tree of Knowledge, they were to experience “Good and Evil” and ultimately reunite with God. Their longing for each other was so excruciating that they indulged in endless sexual intimacy, populating the Earth with their descendants.

Sex is, indeed, a unique phenomenon - a flawless mechanism to sustain the evolution of mortal beings on planet Earth. The act itself embodies the Yin-Yang principle: at the core of the female body an ovum is born awaiting to be fertilised by the male sperm, which is born in his center. In the ecstatic union of masculine and feminine bodies, their sexual creative energies merge into something new - a child, a fusion of father and mother. When the parents pass on, their offspring continue their evolutionary lineage, advancing not just themselves, but the entire human species.

Yet I know that in other dimensions, there is no such thing as sex - not as the human race understands it. In those realms, beings live as long as they desire, and evolution unfolds without the need for new births. There are no genders, no sexual organs, no division into masculine and feminine energies - simply because there is no separation. All beings are whole, woven from the same essence, fully aware of their connection to everything that exists. They experience infinite bliss and express it effortlessly through themselves. For them, pleasure is as natural as breathing is for humans - beyond judgment or morality. And just as one strives to breathe deeply, these beings aspire to embody the highest form of pleasure in every moment of their existence. Not to outdo one another in some race for ecstasy, but simply because it is their essence.

When they meet, they share their pleasure openly and regardless of who is standing in front of them. To offer pleasure to one another is as natural as greeting someone on Earth - a gesture of refined courtesy, not dictated by moral codes, but simply the way of highly evolved beings.

I remember being one of them. I remember it so vividly that I have struggled my entire life to fit within the constraints of this world. To me, sex, in its human form, is too rough - it hurts and shatters my delicate body. And so, for years, I have sought to integrate the wisdom of higher civilizations into those who are ready to receive it. Through the experience of sensual energetic interaction (what this world might call Tantra), through deep, open conversations, through practices and attunements, I awaken their potential.

The physical act of sex and pleasure are so tightly bound in the human mind that people struggle to accept the idea that orgasm can be experienced without even touching the body. Because of commitment to this inseparable connection, humans cannot allow themselves to experience orgasm while embracing a child, shaking hands with a business partner, having thoughtful conversation with someone else's husband. They block any inappropriate manifestation of awakening sexual energy with shame, but this, alas, only leads to suffering.

For the source of pleasure that resides within us holds a unique truth - it must flow. When the current ceases to circulate, it stagnates, turning toxic. This toxicity seeps into one’s inner state and inevitably manifests in the outer reality of life. That is why it is vital-essential - for every person to learn how to express their sexual energy outward. And there are countless ways to do so beyond sex in its conventional sense.

I admire how artists have learned to channel their sexual energy - through music, song, dance, painting, poetry... In their artwork, they capture the sacred moment of union, sometimes so metaphorically that even they do not fully recognise it. They are depicting sex - but more precisely, they are giving form to sexual energy, pouring it through the vessel of their being.

A moment of creative inspiration is akin to a wave of deep arousal, languishing to be released. This energy presses from within, it surges and aches to be manifested. Creation is an act of merging with the Divine. In that moment, one loses their human boundaries, their ego, their mind. They surrender completely to a sacred union with the Higher Force - with You, my God. And from this union, a child is born - a creation, a work of art. Sometimes fleeting, ephemeral. Other times, powerful enough to touch countless souls.

Business partners, dance partners, friends, rivals, even strangers on the street - they are all engaged in this dance. Every single interaction is an exchange of sexual energy. The only question is: how openly do we allow ourselves to express it? With no ulterior motives, expecting nothing in return - except the pure, uninhibited flow of self-expression, meeting another in that same liberated expression.

Blessed is the world where energy flows freely. In such a world, there are no wars, no poverty, no suffering. There is no unfulfilled longing, no existential doubt. “Who am I? Why am I here?” - these questions do not arise. There is no Ego, no illusion, no shame-born deception. There is only the creative expression of life force, manifesting in infinite forms.

And the very knowing that I am doing everything in my power to help create this world fills me with a deep, undeniable joy. It makes me whole. And Grateful to You, my Beloved, for this creative union that we have, for the birth of our child - the purest form of our Divine Love.

Oh, my God - let the day come when this energy is vast enough to embrace the entire Earth. Let Your Truth awaken the sleeping souls and guide them to unlock their sensual potential, to reunite with the Source, to realize themselves as limitless creative beings - whole within, living in pleasure with the dance of Feminine and Masculine flowing in harmony through their bodies, capable of reaching the highest ecstatic states and sharing them freely, openly, unapologetically.

I dedicate my life to this Truth. I dedicate my life to You, my Lord.

You and I - are One.

I Love You,
Catrin