My Beloved,
You know me - my soul has always been insatiable in its desire to explore energy in all its possible manifestations. But in this world, it has a uniquely exquisite shade - sexual.. Life itself on this planet is born from a divine act of Love, expressed in the sensual dance of man and woman. I am endlessly in awe of Your inimitable power to create extraordinary manifestations of energy, but this one - I say with certainty - is Your Masterpiece!
I have been exploring this energy since the very womb, studying, for a lifetime, its origins, its expressions, and the profound transformations it can bring. Oh, Lord, how delicious it is. Through my body, You have the ability to experience this divine pleasure, and now that we are once again Consciously Together, I am delighted to share it with You, again and again, with ever-deepening passion as I dive further into my study of this Quintessence of Life.
Through years, I've mastered the art of playing with my intimate muscles, behind which I discovered an endless treasure trove of sexual energy. Touching this source, I learned to draw energy from its depths, guiding it throughout my whole body. Oh, what a magnificent sensation it is, my Lord! When shimmering currents of energy, sometimes as playful streams, sometimes as powerful waves, flow through me, directed by my awareness toward shores. It feels like inner shivers filled with purest ecstasy - the Quintessence of Your Love rushing through the depths of my being. How fascinating it is to witness my body’s response to these currents - trembling, arching, surrendering to the dance of inner ecstatic energy.
I have learned to accumulate this energy in the centers of my being, raising it to the point where it bursts into an orgasmic firework, spreading bliss throughout my body. Oh, how differently these orgasms feel!
At the lower center, the orgasm is the most intense and fiery. When I caress my vulva, an intoxicating tickling sensation builds, pulsing gently, as if waves of pleasure were kissing the surface of my being. If I focus solely on the outer realm of my yoni, the energy pools here, surging with raw, electrifying pleasure. But clitoris is merely the tip of the iceberg. If I guide the energy inward, along the hidden paths of the whole clitoral body, deeper into the sacred temple of my womb, the pleasure deepens, expands, transforms. With the energy comes the Divine Nectar - Amrita, making each touch even more electric, more intoxicating. The orgasm simmers like molten lava within the volcano of my being before erupting, casting its crimson glow into the world. I feel every stagnant energy, even in the most hidden corners of my body, stirring, awakening, preparing to leave and make room for fresh life force. This orgasm I give to myself - and, of course, to You - whenever I feel the call for energetic refresh or when the energy within me swells so fiercely that I can no longer contain its burning intensity.
The second center - gateway to the inner world. Here, orgasm is born at the cervix uteri, as a barely perceptible yet utterly consuming pleasure. When I trace the softest, most delicate circles around the entrance to my sacred chamber, my cervix begins to sing with energy. This song is like static electricity, humming at the gateway to my womb. A vortex forms, spiralling inward, drawing energy deep within, filling my pelvis with warm, luminous bliss. Here resides my wellspring of pleasure, shimmering in the light of Your Divine presence, playfully rippling, ready to nourish every cell of my body with the essence of life itself.
Raising the energy to the third center, I experience a deep, profound satisfaction, akin to a gourmet orgasm - as if I have just finished the most exquisite meal. It is the sensation of complete satiety, of having received something utterly nourishing, something wholly beneficial, something that fills my being with pure gratitude. My stomach pulses gently, radiating contentment throughout my body, washing over me in waves of peace and abundance.
The energy rises higher to the heart center, where orgasm feels like… Love. Oh, such boundless, expanding Love. This orgasm does not burst outward like the fiery clitoral release, but instead it envelops everything in its warm embrace. Here, all opposites dissolve, all dualities merge - there is only Unity, the realisation that I Am Everything, and Everything Is Love. In this sacred moment, I long to share this radiance with the world, to bathe all of existence in this boundless, overflowing Love.
And the energy rises to the fifth center, exploding into a throat orgasm - which pours out in ringing laughter, absolutely pure and infectiously uncontainable! This laughter is the very music of joy, the ecstatic expression of my soul reveling in the act of simply Being. It is a song of delight, an jubilant symphony of existence itself, spilling into the air in waves of shimmering pleasure. From the corners of my lips, the energy currents ascend, rising to my ears, where it pulses in rhythm with the beat of my heart. A radiant fountain of tears flows from the eyes. These are tears of bliss, the crystalline elixir of life, and within their sacred structure - is You, my God.
This moment is the pinnacle of human experience, when all that remains within me are just two firstborn emotions: Love and Joy.
And when this Joy is fully lived, it melts into stillness, into serene peace. Then, the gates to Divine Truth open - the realm of the so-called Third Eye. Here, energy no longer moves chaotically; instead, consciousness expands, stretching to the farthest reaches of existence. I still feel myself, but I also I feel Everything - every reflection of myself in the external reality. I encompass the past, the present, and all the possible future. Here, I see the unfolding paths of destiny, the threads of time weaving their intricate patterns. I can foresee, I can guide, I can shape the future - but, in truth, the wisdom of this realm lies in surrender. In quiet, watchful awareness of all that was, all that is, and all that is to come.
And when awareness transcends the earthly experience, dissolving into the cosmic vastness - I leave my body through the crown chakra.
And I return to You, my God.
Into the all-encompassing Nothingness, where I no longer exist - no identity, no thoughts, no body. Not even energy as I once knew it. Only pure consciousness. It does not fly, it does not float - it simply is. Resting in the infinite, in a realm where there is no color, no taste, no sound.
There is nothing here… except You.
And it is through these sacred reunions that I have begun to remember. It is after these ascensions that I return to my body with an unshakable knowing:
“Things are not as they seem. There is something greater.
Something I know deep within, and now, I begin to remember.”
It is this knowing that has guided me ever deeper into my exploration of self, of this human life. It has led me back to You, into Your loving embrace - which has always been Here, but which I can now, at last, fully perceive.
Today… and always… I thank You, my Beloved, for gifting me This Life - this one, and no other.
Here, on This Earth, with its endless spectrum of emotions, with the infinite ways energy dances into form, and with its most sacred manifestation - sexual energy. The energy of Life, of Pleasure, of deep Fulfillment. The energy of Love, Creation, Joy, Contemplation… and, at last, the energy of Union with You, my Beloved.
I thank You for this divine game called Life.
Yours, in every heartbeat, Catrin.
You know me - my soul has always been insatiable in its desire to explore energy in all its possible manifestations. But in this world, it has a uniquely exquisite shade - sexual.. Life itself on this planet is born from a divine act of Love, expressed in the sensual dance of man and woman. I am endlessly in awe of Your inimitable power to create extraordinary manifestations of energy, but this one - I say with certainty - is Your Masterpiece!
I have been exploring this energy since the very womb, studying, for a lifetime, its origins, its expressions, and the profound transformations it can bring. Oh, Lord, how delicious it is. Through my body, You have the ability to experience this divine pleasure, and now that we are once again Consciously Together, I am delighted to share it with You, again and again, with ever-deepening passion as I dive further into my study of this Quintessence of Life.
Through years, I've mastered the art of playing with my intimate muscles, behind which I discovered an endless treasure trove of sexual energy. Touching this source, I learned to draw energy from its depths, guiding it throughout my whole body. Oh, what a magnificent sensation it is, my Lord! When shimmering currents of energy, sometimes as playful streams, sometimes as powerful waves, flow through me, directed by my awareness toward shores. It feels like inner shivers filled with purest ecstasy - the Quintessence of Your Love rushing through the depths of my being. How fascinating it is to witness my body’s response to these currents - trembling, arching, surrendering to the dance of inner ecstatic energy.
I have learned to accumulate this energy in the centers of my being, raising it to the point where it bursts into an orgasmic firework, spreading bliss throughout my body. Oh, how differently these orgasms feel!
At the lower center, the orgasm is the most intense and fiery. When I caress my vulva, an intoxicating tickling sensation builds, pulsing gently, as if waves of pleasure were kissing the surface of my being. If I focus solely on the outer realm of my yoni, the energy pools here, surging with raw, electrifying pleasure. But clitoris is merely the tip of the iceberg. If I guide the energy inward, along the hidden paths of the whole clitoral body, deeper into the sacred temple of my womb, the pleasure deepens, expands, transforms. With the energy comes the Divine Nectar - Amrita, making each touch even more electric, more intoxicating. The orgasm simmers like molten lava within the volcano of my being before erupting, casting its crimson glow into the world. I feel every stagnant energy, even in the most hidden corners of my body, stirring, awakening, preparing to leave and make room for fresh life force. This orgasm I give to myself - and, of course, to You - whenever I feel the call for energetic refresh or when the energy within me swells so fiercely that I can no longer contain its burning intensity.
The second center - gateway to the inner world. Here, orgasm is born at the cervix uteri, as a barely perceptible yet utterly consuming pleasure. When I trace the softest, most delicate circles around the entrance to my sacred chamber, my cervix begins to sing with energy. This song is like static electricity, humming at the gateway to my womb. A vortex forms, spiralling inward, drawing energy deep within, filling my pelvis with warm, luminous bliss. Here resides my wellspring of pleasure, shimmering in the light of Your Divine presence, playfully rippling, ready to nourish every cell of my body with the essence of life itself.
Raising the energy to the third center, I experience a deep, profound satisfaction, akin to a gourmet orgasm - as if I have just finished the most exquisite meal. It is the sensation of complete satiety, of having received something utterly nourishing, something wholly beneficial, something that fills my being with pure gratitude. My stomach pulses gently, radiating contentment throughout my body, washing over me in waves of peace and abundance.
The energy rises higher to the heart center, where orgasm feels like… Love. Oh, such boundless, expanding Love. This orgasm does not burst outward like the fiery clitoral release, but instead it envelops everything in its warm embrace. Here, all opposites dissolve, all dualities merge - there is only Unity, the realisation that I Am Everything, and Everything Is Love. In this sacred moment, I long to share this radiance with the world, to bathe all of existence in this boundless, overflowing Love.
And the energy rises to the fifth center, exploding into a throat orgasm - which pours out in ringing laughter, absolutely pure and infectiously uncontainable! This laughter is the very music of joy, the ecstatic expression of my soul reveling in the act of simply Being. It is a song of delight, an jubilant symphony of existence itself, spilling into the air in waves of shimmering pleasure. From the corners of my lips, the energy currents ascend, rising to my ears, where it pulses in rhythm with the beat of my heart. A radiant fountain of tears flows from the eyes. These are tears of bliss, the crystalline elixir of life, and within their sacred structure - is You, my God.
This moment is the pinnacle of human experience, when all that remains within me are just two firstborn emotions: Love and Joy.
And when this Joy is fully lived, it melts into stillness, into serene peace. Then, the gates to Divine Truth open - the realm of the so-called Third Eye. Here, energy no longer moves chaotically; instead, consciousness expands, stretching to the farthest reaches of existence. I still feel myself, but I also I feel Everything - every reflection of myself in the external reality. I encompass the past, the present, and all the possible future. Here, I see the unfolding paths of destiny, the threads of time weaving their intricate patterns. I can foresee, I can guide, I can shape the future - but, in truth, the wisdom of this realm lies in surrender. In quiet, watchful awareness of all that was, all that is, and all that is to come.
And when awareness transcends the earthly experience, dissolving into the cosmic vastness - I leave my body through the crown chakra.
And I return to You, my God.
Into the all-encompassing Nothingness, where I no longer exist - no identity, no thoughts, no body. Not even energy as I once knew it. Only pure consciousness. It does not fly, it does not float - it simply is. Resting in the infinite, in a realm where there is no color, no taste, no sound.
There is nothing here… except You.
And it is through these sacred reunions that I have begun to remember. It is after these ascensions that I return to my body with an unshakable knowing:
“Things are not as they seem. There is something greater.
Something I know deep within, and now, I begin to remember.”
It is this knowing that has guided me ever deeper into my exploration of self, of this human life. It has led me back to You, into Your loving embrace - which has always been Here, but which I can now, at last, fully perceive.
Today… and always… I thank You, my Beloved, for gifting me This Life - this one, and no other.
Here, on This Earth, with its endless spectrum of emotions, with the infinite ways energy dances into form, and with its most sacred manifestation - sexual energy. The energy of Life, of Pleasure, of deep Fulfillment. The energy of Love, Creation, Joy, Contemplation… and, at last, the energy of Union with You, my Beloved.
I thank You for this divine game called Life.
Yours, in every heartbeat, Catrin.